Didn't mean to write anything about the matter at all, but perhaps it'd be impolite to just keep quiet and to myself. So the answer is: yes, thanks for your concern. i've grown up and grown out, though not entirely in the way you meant i guess. i've grown out of a wishful thinking and longing for someone who is not you. Out of little fragments of memories - early morning blog reading, short-long train rides, merry laughing over nothing - which i weaved carefully through other bad memories i chose not to see. But they have unfurled themselves in front of me when it all broke down.

i'm not placing the blame on anyone, least of all you. Though you sometime did say things you didn't mean, it was just me who masked myself and couldn't tell. So bye now to that someone else, someone other than you. You can still find a willing friend in me, anytime. But not the best, nor second or third best, and you know i mean the things i say.  ¶

10:36 |

 

My next girlfriend shall be a lingerie model, i happened to say one day. Now i've been punished for all my dirrrty thoughts.

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10:32 |

 

Been stretching myself a bit too far lately. Fortunately the school exams will soon be over and i can take a break from the four-day-per-week routine of tuition. If you have noticed, my blog-designing fever has subsided, partly due to the busy schedule and lack of a lot of sleep.

It's always like this - i promised myself more free time to take up other stuffs after the guitar exam, and had thereafter been looking forward to that. Now that the guitar exam had past for almost a month, and i'm just as tied up and tired out. i wouln't be very surprised if i still find myself short of time after the school exams.

Anyway i'm still continuing with the guitar lessons. Can't help wanting to continue everytime i hear my lousy playing. And can't bear to turn the maestro down. So all other aspirations have. to. wait.

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"Hey, how've you been doing?"

i have been doing fine - slightly more frustrated with life right after i lose a Winning Eleven match or two, otherwise mostly content with the way things are - but i just don't feel like replying/talking to you.  ¶

10:11 |